Gift
or Tragedy? |
The weirdest thing happened Saturday morning!
Saturday was my birthday....
Seven a.m. that morning I found myself sitting up in bed, wide
awake, and before I knew what was happening, I found myself
automatically getting dressed, even lacing my sneakers. Seven in
the morning is really early for me, so it was odd. I usually go
to sleep around 3 in the morning, and get up about 10. And
usually, I'm slow to get ready to face the day.
But Saturday, at about 7:10, my consciousness suddenly shifted
dramatically, (I thought somehow I had taken the wrong morning
medications) but within the next 5 minutes I heard a terrific
crash which rocked the house. Without thinking, I ran outside,
across the lawn, over the fence and wound up at the scene of the
worst car accident I ever saw.
One man was very dead, split in half by his seatbelt I think.
After I took his pulse (got none) held the dead man's hand for a
few seconds and said a quick prayer for his soul, I ran over to
the other car in which there was an unconscious kid (about 21)
who was barely breathing with an obstructed airway because his
head was pulled back between the front seats. On the seat next to
him, placed perfectly, there was a yellow legal pad with the
awkward penciled writing of a child.
There was a woman who had arrived before me already holding the
young man's hands and soothing him, telling him, "Hang
in there, someone will be here soon," over and over
again. She must have come from one of the nearby houses. But she
seemed to know what she was doing.
She said, "He needs to be suctioned."
I didn't hear any rattling of mucous, just a blocked gasp for
breath. I said, "You'll have to lift his head because
his airway is obstructed". (I think he broke some neck
bones...) His eyes rolled upward.
She said she was afraid to move his head. He was holding tight to
her hands and I couldn't reach him because the other door was
sealed shut...so I tried to open the hatchback..and climb in so I
could lift his head from behind.
Suddenly, I turned, and saw, walking down the middle of the
street, a man in a brown plaid sports jacket and slacks. He
walked over to the dead man, first and I said, "According
to his pulse, he's dead." Then, shaking his head, he
came walking toward us. I asked, "Are you a
doctor?" He nodded his assent. (Something in the lack
of horror in his demeanor clued me in) Of course, he also could
have been an angel.
So I told him, "This kid needs his head moved; he can't
breathe..." I felt like I just kept saying the same
thing over and over..but it was without the urgency I felt was
appropriate.
The doctor said, "I don't really want to take the chance
of moving it because of the cord..." I said, "If
you don't, we'll lose him..."
He looked at me and I could see compassion in his eyes and the
understanding that what I'd said was true.
I said, "If you're worried about your license, I'll do
it...I'm a nurse."
He said without defensiveness, "No...I'll do it."
The passenger door was stuck shut by the impact of the crash.
And so the doctor stomped and kicked on that door and finally
managed to pull it open...he reached in and carefully moved the
kid's head a bit...and I could hear the young man moan.
I touched him. He was cold and clammy, and shocky. I pulled back
the blanket that the woman had put over him to see if he had
crushed his chest but I couldn't feel any broken ribs and I
didn't see any blood.
The woman holding his hands said as a plea into the wind, "His
pupils are fixed and dilated." And as a prayer, "Please
hurry." (I knew she meant if he didn't get some oxygen
soon, his brain would be mush... or he would die).
I reassured, "It doesn't matter..." I figured
if God was going to provide a nurse, and aide and a doctor at the
scene, within twenty seconds of the crash, he was probably going
to save the kid's life and insure he survived!
By then the police were arriving and so was an ambulance...I
didn't stick around (which is unlike me) I just walked back into
the house.
Three hours later, the fire and police crews were still
cleaning up.
I asked a policeman what had happened to the young man. He told
me they had airlifted him out to the closest University Medical
Center, and last he heard he had gotten through surgery....and
the doctors felt he was going to make it.
I thought about this all weekend, wondered what I'd learned from
it, and when I figured it out, I knew I wanted to share it with
all of you. I guess the reason is, that often we don't see how
spirituality applies in a practical way to everyday life.
The lesson....:
I think the lesson was in "trusting" and
"surrendering." Even while I was getting dressed I
wondered why - but didn't let it stop me. When I was moved to run
out the door, I just knew I had to go. When I got there, I did my
part, and watched the dance as everyone else did theirs. Then I
left without feeling as though I had to stay longer.
The Learning....:
We're never alone. There's some kind of spiritual vibrational
volunteer network (like a volunteer fire department) who seem to
be able to jump into action when they are called....And angels
and spirits call whenever they need our help with physical
intervention.
We don't have to do it all. Just our part. Each of us there
served in a small way, together it made all the difference. I
know if the boy's neck wasn't straightened, he would have died
right there. I said it, and the doctor did it. And the woman
offered the boy hope and reassurance. I was grateful to be able
to hold the hand of the man who had died, say a prayer and speed
his spirit toward the Light. Even though it was "All Soul's
Day," and according to Catholic mythology, those who die on
that day have a special pass to "heaven."
It was his deathday, my birthday, and I was reminded again, with special emphasis that, "In the midst of Life, there's death." That was the present that Spirit gave me. And it made my day especially precious.
Hopeful
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